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After B had called, I wrapped up my arm in a plastic bag and went and showered. By the time I was actually done with my shower, dressed, teeth brush, hair combed, and a little bit of makeup on I was exhausted, due to only having really one arm for use.

I was ready to go back to sleep but my sister was coming.. and Jackson didn't even know that Dante and Bianca had a kid.. so, I figured I might as well go back to the bedroom where he was asleep and tell him so he could shower and so he didn't find out with the little girl in his face. I walked out over to the bed, shaking him lightly with my good hand as I sat on the edge of the bed next to him. "Jackson, I gotta tell you something." I said softly.


Abby's Outfit

I stretched out on the bed, looking up at her from my fading haze of sleep. "God, you're beautiful," I told her, rubbing my face and pushing myself to sit up, pulling my pillow onto my lap. "What's going on? You feeling alright?" I reached out, rubbing my hand over her stomach. I was still on cloud nine because she was carrying not one but two of my babies in there. Yes, there wasn't a doubt in my mind I was the father. I knew she did, but I wasn't going to ever doubt it.

I glanced down at his hand on my stomach and back up at his face. "Well, aren't you just a sweet talker.." I said, stalling what I was really sitting down to say. "I'm fine. But, we, eh, have guests coming so you might wanna go shower.." I shrugged, pulling his hand away. I loved the feel of it but I didn't want him to get the wrong idea. We may have had sex when I was high as a kite.. and horny.. but we weren't back together. I wasn't sure what the hell I wanted anymore. I still loved Jeff, and I loved Jackson, and yes, I made this awful pile of a mess for myself.. I loved Jackson.. boy did I, yes, but I wasn't sure what I wanted out of us, out of my life and jumping back in wouldn't be fair. At this point I just wanted to be a mom to my babies.. which scared the hell out of me.. one was one.. but two.. God, two was a scary ass thought.

I groaned, sighing heavily, tossing the pillow back in it's place. "Who's coming over?" I asked, standing up off the bed and walking over to the dresser to pull out some boxers. I walked toward the bathroom. "You can talk to me while I shower. Come on."

I found myself staring at his ass as he walked away but blinked when I heard what he said. "Oh.. okay." I said, standing up, walking toward the bathroom with him. "Eh, Bianca and Dante are.. because they have something they need to do.. well, tell us.. okay, not us, you, because I already know... so... eh, remember when B asked me to come over? Because she was upset?"

I tossed my boxers on the counter, turning to her and giving her that look. "How could I forget?" I scoffed only slightly and turned to turn on the shower. I let the water warm up, letting my hand feel the temperature as I looked back at her. "So, what happened? I'm sure he didn't dump her. I would have heard about it by now." Dante would have told me if something like that would have happened. I stepped into the shower and let the water wash over me. "So, what is it?"

I turned my eyes to the floor, trying to find the words to speak. "Well, B, eh, she got pregnant after she left, well, before, and she was pregnant when she left I guess. Anyways, long story short, Bianca and Dante have a daughter Tamara that Dante never knew about.. none of us did and Dante and her fought over it and now I guess they're bringing her over to meet us."

I stuck my now soaped up head out of the shower, looking over at her. "What the-- You've gotta be shittin me! ZhiZhi got herself knocked up AND kept the fucking kid from Dante?" I shook my head and popped back in the shower. "That's some messed up shit!"

"Sorta, yes.. but that's not your business. That's up to Bianca and Dante how they handle that. But, yeah... hurry up cause they'll be here soon and try and be nice!" I said, shutting the bathroom door and walking off to clean up the apartment a little. Okay so it wasn't my place but I wanted it to look a little nice for all of them.

I shook my head, rinsing out my hair and picking up the soap to clean off my body. Rinsing myself off after I was done, I turned off the water and stepped out. Grabbing my towel, I dried myself off and pulled my boxers on before heading out to the bedroom. Pulling on a superman tshirt and my jeans, I pulled on my socks and shoes and headed out. "Baby, you're supposed to be taking it easy," I told her when I saw that she was cleaning up.

I tossed the empty bag away and turned to Jackson. "I'm taking it easy. Well, as easy as I can take it, you're lucky I didn't scrub the floors since they need them so damn bad.." I said, smiling. "Sorry, I'm nervous so I'm taking over your apartment.. sorry." I let go of a heavy breath. "You look nice.." I walked past him and sat on the couch. "Okay, taking it easy... taking it easy..." I stood up. "I can't take it easy!" I said, starting to fix the magazines near by so they were straight.

I took the magazines from her and stacked them. "Come here," I said, leading her to the kitchen, helping her sit down. "Would you like a drink? Something to eat? Something that will busy your hands just so you don't feel like you have to be doing something with them?"

"No..." I said, staring at him. "I'm not hungry.. or thirsty.." I let my leg bounce. "They should be here any minute.. Oh, and Bianca knows I'm having twins.. I don't know if she told Dante... but she knows.. I'm meeting Bianca's daughter today.. what if she doesn't like me?" I was rambling. I knew it, but, I didn't stop.

I stopped, turning back to look at her, shaking my head. "What?" I crouched down in front of her, placing my hands on her knees, shaking my head more. "Why in the world would she not fall absolutely in love with you? Everyone loves you, baby!" I smiled up at her. "Kyle? Remember him? You're the only mother that little boy is ever going to have, and he loves you more than almost everyone in this entire world. There's no way in heaven or hell this little girl isn't going to love you too."

"Of course I remember Kyle!" I said, tears bubbling up in my eyes. "Can we not discuss this, please?" I stood up, walking past him. "What's taking them so long?" I wasn't sure whether I was upset over Tammy and her possibly not liking me.. or the fact that I was pregnant and scared out of my mind every second since I found out I was responsible for more than one life... one.. was enough weight on my shoulders.. but two? Two little people who are going to depend on me and me alone.. that was scary.. yes, I'd have Jeff or Jackson whoever turned out to be the father.. but.. I was their mother. This was MY job. And it was a huge job.

We walked up the stairs and down the hall toward Jackie's apartment and I smiled down at Tammy. "I told my cousin A about you the other day, so she knows you're coming. Your Uncle Jackie may not, unless A has told him." I looked up at Dante. "I don't think your daddy's had a chance to." Tammy looked up at me, sighing heavily. "Stop stalling, Isabella. They can't be more upset with you than my Aunt Carly is." I turned my head away from her, nodding and knocking on the door.

I hadn't told Jackson and hopefully he wasn't upset with me for not telling him yet. We had went straight from home to get Tammy in a day.. basically and I hadn't even thought of calling him. "Tammy, stop being crabby." She looked up at me, sighing. "Sorry." She said as the door opened and Abby appeared in the doorway. "Hey.." I said, taking Tammy's hand, walking with her inside with Bianca after Abby stepped out of the way.

I came up beside Abigail, wrapping my arm around her waist and looking down at the little girl. "Wow!" I looked up at Dante shaking my head. "She looks just like you!" I would have asked him if he trusted ZhiZhi, that the girl was really his, but she did look just like Dante. "Come in. Mi casa e su casa," I said, looking back down to the little girl. "Do you understand Spanish?" She shook her head up at me. "I'm Italian." She looked up at Dante, asking, "Is this my uncle?" I laughed, answering. "Well, your pops and I aren't really brothers or anything like that, but I'd like to think of him as my brother, so yeah, kinda makes me your uncle." She smiled from me and back up to Dante. "I like him, Daddy!" She looked over to Abigail and I rubbed Abigail's side softly. "Hi," she said, smiling up at Abigail. "Are you my Aunt Abigail?"

"Yes," I said my voice becoming thick with unshed tears. "I'm your aunt." I reached down to give her a hug. "Nice to meet you, Tammy." I said, pulling back to look at her better. "You're so pretty." She smiled. "Thanks, you too! What happened to your arm?" I took in a deep breath. "I fell. I'm okay though.. are you hungry?" She shook her head. "We just ate." She said, smiling. "And I know who you are, Uncle Jackson, you play football just like daddy! I can't believe I didn't think about it!" Dante laughed. "Well, he does wear a helmet all the time." I smiled, standing up straight and walking over to hug B. Things seemed okay with Dante and B.. but I wasn't sure and didn't want to ask in front of Tammy.

"Are you sure you're ok?" I asked, grateful for the hug and not wanting to let go. It was the first genuine thing I've had in days. I knew that C still loved me, even though she was upset with me, but I could feel that in her hug. In A's hug, I could feel the warmth as always. "If you broke your arm, that couldn't have been a light fall. And you said twins?!?" Tammy grabbed Dante's and Jackie's arms, walking with them over to the living room. "Let's let them talk. I have two of my favorite people in one room. I'm not spoiling this!" I looked over at Tammy and then back at A, biting my lip. Oh, this was difficult. But at least I could focus on A and not the mess I created. "What happened?"

I shook my head, scooping up Tammy and walking over to sit on the couch with Jackson. I let her sit on my lap and looked over at my brother. "So before little girl here talks your ear off about sports why don't you tell me why Abby's here..?" Last I had heard they were over. So maybe they were taking a good step in the right direction. "And twins, really?" I asked. "Hey, let me ask about..." i cut Tammy off. "You can wait, midget." She laughed. "Yeah, yeah!"

I looked back at Abigail and then back to Dante. "We found out about the twins when we were at the hospital yesterday. I am still Abigail's emergency contact, but I actually got the Little One's call before the hospital's call. Abigail had gone back over to Cavallari's yesterday I guess after spending the night with ZhiZhi," I told him, shrugging my shoulders. "The Little One was there and she left." Dante's daughter looked up at me, asking, "What is the little one?" I looked down at her, laughing a bit. "Little One is my nickname for one of my best friends." She narrowed her eyes on me and looked back at Abigail. "Why did Aunt Abigail leave if you were playing with your friend?" I cleared my throat, shifting slightly. Kids always did ask a million questions. "Abigail and the Little One aren't getting a long very well right now." She nodded her head, laying her head against Dante's shoulder. "Can we talk about football now?" I laughed, shaking my head. "Wouldn't it be more fun to talk about you?"

I watched Dante and Jackson sit down on the couch with Tamara and took Bianca's hand and pulled her into the kitchen. I sat down after she did and sighed. "Okay, so, I'm fine.. honestly. I mean my head hurts some.. and so does my arm.. but me and the babies are okay.. and I found out yesterday there was more than one.." i shook my head. "I went to Jeff's after I left you and he was there with Carly. I felt so strange.. and hurt so i ran out, and on my way down the steps I must have slipped, I fell down the stairs and woke up later in the hospital.. Jackson was there.. it was strange.. and then I came here and stayed here.. the entire thing is fucked up.. like royally. I don't know how to fix any of it.. I don't know how to apologize to Carly, who's hurting.. and I don't know how to break it to Jeff and Jackson that I don't think I want a family with either of them.. I just want me and my babies.. what about you? What happened? Are you guys okay?"

I was glad she told me all that had happened, but I still felt like she was deflecting. I didn't want to focus on my mess. I wanted to talk about her and the twins. Anything to avoid my mess. "Well, we're getting married," I painted my smile on my face, the one I gave to the rest of the world, the one that A usually could see through, and I hoped she didn't this time. Even if I knew myself there was more sadness behind my eyes than the facade of happiness I was hoping they shined. "Let's not talk about Dante and Tammy and me. Lets talk about you and the twins." Maybe I was deflecting myself, but it was easier to not talk about things than have to lie.

"Well," I said, trying not to laugh but letting out anyways. "Aren't you impatient!" I said to Tammy, tickling her belly. She laughed and pulled away to jump off my lap. "Yeah, run, that way I can catch you later and make the tickling that much worse!" I laughed. "You would not!" She said laughing. I turned back to Jackson. "So, does this mean you two are back together?" I wanted to add in are the twins his but decided to leave that alone. I grabbed Tammy's hand tugging her forward. "You can ask one question for now.." I said.